possible things

ever felt like this?
against a wall,
looking out, wide-eyed,
and wondering what's next?

i have always thought of myself
as someone who faces things straight on.
challenge up? no problem.
hardship? sure, bring it on.

lately however,
i have been feeling a tad discouraged.
maybe it's just that i had never
been without a clear perspective
for a job, a future, a life.
i always had something in sight.

this time however,
there is only uncertainty.
i mean, i believe - no, i know -
that i will get a job.
but as of right now,
i don't know when, where, or in what.

i have been sitting by that wall,
wide-eyed,
looking around for any movement,
any sign that something will happen.

it's not a bad thing.
it's just... different.
i haven't stopped believing,
i am just wondering
when it will all come together...
when it will be certain.

ok, then....

i miss my blog....

i decided it is time to come back,
and reopen it to the public.

the whole shut-down private blog thing
was due to some scares
about people on job searches
who had blogs and posted something that well,
killed their chances so to speak.

because i was overwhelmed
with friend and job and stuff
i didn't have time to think
or i didn't want to...
so i limited access to my blog.

the funny thing is
if any place i apply for a job finds me here,
they will only find good, positive things!
so, my blog is not a bad thing,
it is a good thing!

i have lots to tell you all,
and lots to muse about
but now i have to run to belly dance class.

i promise to be back! i missed you all!

hello fall!

life has been full of small pleasures
and big worries.
the road to happiness
is certainly not easy.

small pleasures:
getting my motorcycle license
getting some leads for jobs
getting 1st place in a sailing race

big worries:
not having a job yet
huge amount of homework
the approach of a deadline

i suppose i am better off
than many,
but still,
it's my life
and i'll cry if i want to!

or laugh...
or.....

jobless life update

there is light at the end of the tunnel.
i just haven't reached the tunnel yet!
and i am not in any hurry...

life has not been much different
from the usual routine
of the non-jobless days.

back then it was going to work,
then do something in the evening:
either belly dance, or sailing, or happy hour.

the only thing missing is the job.
i do continue on with the rest.

one has to have priorities....

an overdue update

after my last post,
i went with my moto friends
to do support for a charity ride in richmond.

doc took his hauler-toy...


which kept us all very comfortable.
that trailer, i'm tellin' ya...
it's better than some apartments i've been to!

we did our work on the route as usual
clearing intersections
and keeping riders safe.

it was nice to see the signs
on the interstate on the way back:


i have also been riding
my engine-less bike... of course!

i have participated
in the md ms150 ride
with several friends from the
babes on bikes cycling club.

we had great weather and a wonderful route.
a good time was had by all!

and of course,
i can't leave without mentioning
my latest passion:
sailing!

we've had some stormy evenings,
and a lot of fun.


just gorgeous!

sailing...

takes me away
to where i'm longing to be....

cheesy songs apart,
sailing does me good.

yesterday was my 3rd time
as crew member of better times,
a 36' beauty
that has been racing on the chesapeake
for many years now.



we meet at the slip
and motor the short trip to the racing area.
then, it's sails up and non-stop activity.

i love it.

yesterday it so happened
that there was practically no wind.
nobody believed the race would happen.
what do you know,
wind got to 2 knots just in time,
and we were off.

well... not really. we were crawling.
at a certain point
several boats from another category
were all bunched up near a mark,
at a dead stop,
their spinnakers like deflated balloons.

we kept at it patiently,
enjoying the views and the beautiful day,
when all of a sudden we saw
boats from the last race
coming up to us,
spinnakers full.

wind!

it was scrambling everywhere
to put up the halyards
and get ours up in time for the turn.
beautiful.
that's what i call
the perfect ending!



will update you all on bike & beer soon!

avon walk for breast cancer report

what can i say?
it was totally awesome!
i have always been into motorcycles,
had one for some 10 years
back in brazil.

haven't had one in 20 years,
but somehow i gravitate around them.
so it was that, during the aidsrides
from 1999 to 2003
i became good friends with the moto safety crew,
aka "moto".

last year i was called in to help
because they didn't have enough crew,
even though i don't own my own bike.
i went and did a "2-up" with a friend
fell in love with it
and the rest is history.

signed up for avon and komen this year,
already re-signed for avon next year.

MOTO ROCKS!!!!

so here are some images
from my awesome weekend.



me and the bike i got to ride on
(as co-rider - this thing is huge!)
a honda goldwing 1800
that is just sweeeet.....

there were many interesting
and unique bike decorations.....




during the walk,
whenever we were between assignments
(i.e., working intersections to keep walkers safe)
we would ride the route
blasting music and cheering on the walkers.
sometimes we would stop and dance
and cheer them up.


this was under the beltway
on rock creek park.

to see the walkers faces
when they turned a curve and heard us
and saw us dancing
was priceless
(this was at mile 25 of a 26.2 route!)

on sunday it poured all day.
i got pretty chilled by mid-day,
and when we reported to the rally point
i asked doc (my riding partner)
to keep the bike lights on
so i could warm up my hands.


everyone thought it was funny
that i was grabbing the headlights
(hey, it was a breast cancer walk...)

in the end we were all cold and wet,
but happy and pleased
with the good job we did!


yeah, MOTO ROCKS!!!!

(and yes, i am thinking
of getting a bike myself...)